Torres Says…

i can feel it…its almost here…FREEDOM!!! 2 more to go…dear God I’m sooo tired of studying.  I got Managerial tomorrow and OB.  I’m scared!  I wanna do well in Managerial but I dont feel im really ready!  I’m at brodie and I dont really feel like studying.  I’m hungry and sleepy.  Someone bring me food!!!

My weekend on the other hand was cool.  Ian from AIESEC UBC was here in toba to visit.  He’s cool.  Friday was Nancy’s going away dinner.  We went to Hu’s on first.  Food was great.  Then Wilson and I went for a lil joint session.  Haha, it was good times.  It was one drunken high night.

Saturday was Prince’s bday.  It was good, except I ended up taking 2 shot for him coz he couldn’t hack it.  Needless to say, I was drunk…again.  So I went to bed at like 6:30am on Sunday morning.  Then 2 hours later, Heather Schindle calls my cell and tells me its time to volunteer for MS walk.  I was like, gahhhhhhhhh…2 hours of sleep.  So i was still drunk and hungry and sleepy all at the same time.  But all was well.  We did the MS walk.  We were incharge of the Food and services.  Things started a lil bit shakey but with everyone’s help, things went well.  I was the foreman, supervising the line and and the front line.  I really like my job.  It was cool…except my legs were tired.  Then I went home, then realized I didnt have keys.  So Mike U had to drive me to my sister’s house.  Then i ate bbq…yum!  I went to bed at like 10pm then woke up at 12pm the next day.  14 hours of sleep!  Sweet!  Haha, then I went to study.  Then went out for coffee w/ eman and moses. 

And now I’m at brodie…trying my hardest to focus and study.  I’m scared! 

Oh yeah, I got a job interview for Manitoba Lottery Corporation for a marketing position this summer.  Everyone PRAY FOR ME!!! I really need a new job and I want the job!  Not that my job right now isn’t awesome, but I need a job relating to my field.  I’m a lil bit nervous about it.  I really don’t know how to prepare.  Here are the three things you have to pray for:

1. That I get a really good mark in Managerial Accounting

2. That I get a B in OB

3. That I get the job at MLC!!

Thanks guys.  God if you’re listening, you know what I want…thanks

Peace out everyone!

PS:  National Leadership Developmen Conference in 1 week.  Montreal, here I come!

It was such a nice day today in Winnipeg.  High of 18 degrees!  Sadly it got really really windy at night and tomorrow the high is 5 degrees :(.  Gotta wear the sweaters again!  So 1 more chapter of my Managerial book to go and I’m officially done my Managerial Accounting review for finals.  I feel much more confident and probably around 65% ready.  I start studying for OB.  I hate that class sooo much!!!  Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! 

So I went to work today but I had to go home.  My work got held up again!  I feel bad for Janice coz she just started this April and someone attempted to rob her wicket.  But the good thing is no one got hurt and nothing was taken. 

11 days till NLDC in Montreal.  As Erica puts it, "I cannot wait to see you Montreal".  I’m soo excited. 

Chicken wings tonight, that sounds yummy.  I’m actually really really hungry!  I dont wanna studying anymore.  Anyhow, peace out!

I can almost feel it, exam is almost over!  Studying for Managerial Accounting and OB right now and then I’m done.  Prince’s bday this weekend so make sure you guys show up at TYC this saturday!  Next week joonee is here!  We’re gonna parttttaaaayyyyy at TYC (again) for her barfday!  It’s gonna be awesome.  A pre-party before montreal baby!  I can’t wait.  Still looking for a new job, anyone know anyone hiring?  Today was pretty productive.  Finished 4 lessons.  I’m a lil hungry but doing aite.  Ok, peace out everyone!

(I had this entry originally today and then while I was studying I thought about the entry and said to myself that I better re-edit what I said because things might just get worst.  Haha, I contradicted myself by saying ‘im not mad’ when it sounded like i was mad…but to be clear, I’m not.  So this is the edited version.  I don’t think anyone read the unrated one…but who knows, it might show up somewhere.  haha) 

haha, this joint horoscope thing is funny…i thought i’d share it.

So the question says, "isn’t there something much more fulfilling and enlightening that I could be doing?"  Well yes!  Studying.  But I want to clear my head of something that’s been bothering me and frankly, it gets tiring. 

There’s certain limit to things.  i’ve always tried to practice the saying "you can’t laugh at people when you can’t laugh at yourself".  and i dont mind when people make fun of me in front of me and I tolerate much things that people say.  I try to keep an open mind and avoid becoming a hypocrite.  But there’s a certain line where you have to draw the line and say where it stops.  I’m fine w/ face to face humilation, but when its on the internet and in front of the world, where what someone puts on the blogs could have detrimental effects on your relationships with others…thats where I draw the line.  When people start telling you, "did you see that blog about you…what the fcuk..that was your friend???", thats where I draw the line.  Funny who can read what people write in their blogs.  It can be your friends, co-workers, schoolmates, colleagues, or even Family.  Its something when its a private message or a lil funny blurb in someone’s page or a testimony, but when its plasterred all over the bulletin board in friendster, that could be something different. 

I’m not mad and not about to send emails or textes with hurtful messages.  I’m merely annoyed.  Well, really REALLY Annoyed!  But it amazes me that a person who is so "intuned" with what other people lack and other people’s mistakes cannot recognize when they step over the line.  And the comments in one’s blog doesn’t impress me in anyway.  It only gets to me even more.  I wanted to let it go and really tried my hardest not to make anything of it, but they just didnt know where to stop.  The subliminal insults and the nonchalant attitude just added to my annoyance.  I can’t help it but just nod my head and say some things will never change.  I’m sure I’ll read something that will just make fun of this entry, or a retaliation saying I’m a horrible person and that I should burn in hell or that I have no sense of humor or im not "cool" or something much much worst.  I sure would love to be proven wrong.  You’ve always had your way.  By all means, have this one too.  The game ends now…no more childish insults on the internet.  This is my attempt to end this.  I’m moving on and try to act like nothing happened.  Peace-out Kids!

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[[I don't feel very good putting an entry about particular individuals specially under a negative light.  but It must be said.  If anyone should be offended by this, I do apologise.  I realize that whatever I have said may have already caused certain implications, but I don't take it back. - mt]]

I ain’t no thug…but something similar would be nice…

Thugs Mansion

2Pac and Nas

A place to spend my quiet nights
Time to unwind
So much pressure in this life of mine
I cry at times
I once contemplated suicide
And woulda tried
But when I held that nine
All I could see was my mama’s eyes
No one knows my struggle
They only see the trouble
Not knowing it’s hard to carry on when no one loves you
Picture me inside the misery and poverty
No man alive has ever witnessed struggles I’ve survived
Praying hard for better days
Promised to hold on
Me and my dogs don’t have a choice but to roll on
We finally found a spot to kick it
Where we could drink liquor
And no one bickers over trick shit
A spot where we could smoke in peace
And even though we Gs
We still visualize places
That we could roll a piece
And in my minds eye
I see this place the players go and pass it
Got a spot for us all
So we can ball
At Thugs Mansion

[Chorus]
Every corner, every city
There’s a place where life’s a little easy
Little Hennessey, laid back and cool
Every hour cause it’s all good
Leave all the stress from the world outside
Every wrong done will be alright
Nothing but peace, love and street passion
Every ghetto needs a thug mansion

Will I survive all the fights in the darkness?
Trouble sparks
They tell me home is where the heart is, dear departed
I shed tattoo tears and couldn’t sleep
Good for multiple years
Witness peers catch gunshots, nobody cares
Seen the politicians vanish
They’d rather see us locked in chains
Please explain why they can’t stand us
Is there a way for me to change?
Or am I just a victim of things I did to maintain
I need a place to rest my head with the little bit of homeboys that remain
Cause all the rest dead
Is there a spot for us go grow?
If ya find it
I’ll be right behind ya, show me and I’ll go
How can I be peaceful?
I’m coming from the bottom
Watch my daddy scream peace while the other man shot em
I need a house that’s full of love when I need to escape the deadly places slanging drugs
I’m seeing
Thugz Mansion

Dear mama don’t cry
Your baby boy’s home again
Tell the homies I’m in heaven and it ain’t got hoods
Seen a show with Marvin Gaye last night
It had me shook
Drinking peppermint schnapps with Jackie Wilson
And Sam Cook
Then some lady named Billie Holiday sang
Sittin there kickin it with Malcolm till the day game
Lil’ Latasha sure grown
Tell the lady in the liquor store that she’s forgiven
So come home
Maybe in time you understand
Only God can save us
Where Miles Davis cutting lose with the band
Just think of all the people that you knew in the past that passed on
They in heaven found peace at last
Picture a place that they exist, together
There has to be a place better than this
In Heaven
So right before I sleep dear God what I’m asking
Remember this face, save me a place
In Thugz Mansion

so the weekend was a total chill.  friday, after my exam, i stayed home to sleep until the morning.  that was nice.  i slept until 3pm and did nothing.  Well I did some AIESEC work during the afternoon.  Then David CG picked me up to hang out and have dinner at his house.  It was cool seeing him again coz he’s just the greatest guy and friend.  We had pizza and had a LOTTTTT of drinks!  Funny how his parents just let us drink all the alcohol.  We had our own bartender, Matthew, his brother.  Then we rented 2 movies; Hotel Rwanda and Oceans 12.

Hotel Rwanda (http://www.mgm.com/ua/hotelrwanda/main.html) was really really disheartening to watch.  It was really sad to see the immense genocide that happened in Rwanda between the Tutsi and the Hitus.  It took place in June 1994 where almost 1 million people died.  It was such a sad movie.  Really got you to think.  There was a line in a movie where the reporter guy was talking.  He said, "People see these things and they say, OMG thats horrible…then they go back to eating their dinner."  Funny how that was really true.  I’ve seen myself do it and I’m sure you have as well.  Then I ask myself, what can I do?  Considering where my life is right now, my lack of experience and money to do something significant about these kind of humane matter, I can’t really do much.  I guess awareness is what i can really offer.  It’s just sad how they all killed those people.  The Hitus and the Tutsis were at war because of a very stupid and subjective reason.  SKIN COLOR!!!!  You see, Hitus were darker skin and had flatter nose while Tutsis had lighter skin.  The Hitus were killing all the Tutsis.  Funny how their tribal segragation started–primarily based on skin tone.  I don’t know, i was just really sad about the movie and what happened.  I hope thing like that ever happened here! 

It really made me appreciate what I have now and what I’m able to do.  It made me appreciate my freedom and my culture.  Funny how before I wasn’t really proud of being Filipino, but now, I wear the Philippine flag proudly on my back.  Culture is something that no one can ever take away from you.  It is one of the greatest gift that our parents could give us without paying for it.  So be proud people!  And watch Hotel Rwanda, I highly recommend it…

Anyhow, studying commence tomorrow.  I think I had a great 2 days to rest.  Work all week and study all night.  It will be fun!  Peace out everyone!

Finished the 3rd exam now we rest until monday till hardcore studying commence once again!  *Sigh…finally!  I get to sleep in…ttyl!

if only we can boycott exams.  well we can technically, we just lose the marks for it!!! I HATE STATS2!!!

*runs to the hallway and screams

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ok im back.  so yeah exam tonight at 6pm!  laters

(Only relevant to people in AIESEC)

so guess what…who raised traineeships today???  TOBA!!! Manitoba Hydro has decided to commit to upto 2 traineeships EVERY YEAR!!! SWEEEETTTT.  This just made my day!  I got a call from my contact in the company and told me the good news!  Omg!!!  I’m sooo excited.  Our exec year is surely having a great start.  We’re bound to exceed minimum standards this year.  Woot woot. 

On a better note, Ill be writing my exam in less than 8 hours.  How sad.  I’m tired and hungry but moses, vic and alan are bringing me sustainance.  So i’ll be home in a couple hours, sleep for a couple hours and then study before the exam.  And then I’ll study for some more for my exam on friday.  What a deal!!!  What a great day!

Yey! Done my first final.  4 more to go.  next stop, management science on thursday at 9am and Stats2 on Friday at 6pm.  Then i’m off to hybernation to study for Managerial Accounting and OB.  Last exam is on April 28, then i’m off to party for the weekend and then MONTREAL for NLDC!!! (http://www.nldc.mcgill.ca) for 7 days w/ my exec team.  So that’s the forecast of my month!

So, what a waste of my weekend because I didn’t do any studying at all. How sweet!  I did go to Brodie Ctr to "study" but really didn’t do anything.  Wait I did, i wasted time by going on friendster, talking to people, taking a nap and eating! 

Today was very productive though.  I studied A LOT for my 2 upcoming exams.  And then Marianne and I went to for a "hospital adventure".  So we’re like, "well we’ve never been in this part of Brodie and we’ve been going to school for 3 years.  So we went to wander in the hospital in search for food and visit the infamous "cafeteria". 

It was rather interesting I might say.  Well first, Marianne said, "let’s visit my dad…" (oh by the way, just in case you read my blog, GET WELL, not that you will ever go here).  and i was like, surreeee.  So off we went.  Then she said "we gotta turn off our cellphone".  And i’m like ok.  So i turned off my cellphone.  And then we were walking at the shady hallways of the hospital and it was really freaky and we were afraid that we were gonna get jumped.  So i thought outloud, "won’t it suck if we get jumped and we have to call 911 and we can’t coz my cell is off?"  and then i thought again, "well since we’re at the hospital already, we dont have to call emergency!.  Then we reached our final destination, the Cafeteria.  I tell you what, it was gross there!!!! The food’s gross so I don’t suggest you go there unless you are REALLY REALLY hungry.

On our way back, I ran into my friend from highschool.  Seems like i’ve been running into her a lot lately.  Just bring back memories when we use to chat/chill/laff back in the day.  She’s so cool to talk to and she’s super funny.  And the other day, she made me blush!  Which was really rare!  Haha, I’m all embarassed.  She must think I’m a freak. 

Anyhow, I’m jsut wasting time till Marianne is done studying.  I’m all done for the day coz im just tired.  I’m happy.  Haha!!!  I can’t stop smiling.  Marianne knows why.  ok peace out!